I was reading my journal today and I found this statement on the front page interesting.  (It’s not vain to quote yourself, is it?)

“There is something freeing that happens when the ink rolls across the page.  The pages that follow will be landmarks and benchmarks; Not of epic events, but of the mundane; the everyday.  They will show my progress…”

I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t write in my journal (or blog) daily.  If the pages of my journal are benchmarks, what do all of the blank pages mean?  What progress was made between the dates of August 13 and December 31 of 2008?

At first I thought it meant I was lazy and while that’s true, I think the real problem is that I love the idea of tomorrow more than today.  I’m a dreamer.  Tomorrow has unlimited potential while today is boring and filled with tasks and chores.  I like the concept of journaling–having an outlet for reflection and a means of seeing growth in incremental steps–more than I like actually writing in a journal.  Just the thought of reading old journal entries gets me excited, but I often fail to make the connection that I’ll actually have to WRITE SOMETHING TODAY to have something to look back on tomorrow.

The same can be said for my blog.  In my head, every entry will be of great significance causing dozens of people (I’m still grounded in reality) to engage in thought and dialogue both online and offline.  I begin to compose said entries in my head, complete with witty titles, but they seldom make it to the screen.

“Talk does not cook rice” says the Chinese proverb and my intentions don’t put words on paper or blog entries online.  I have an “action” problem, but I think I’m getting better at it.  I guess we’ll find out over the next few days and weeks.

Speaking of the next few days, I’m leaving for Peoria, Illinois tomorrow morning with the cross-country team for Nationals.  This trip will be all sorts of fun;  I’ll post pictures and write about it, I promise!