I figured out the reason I haven’t been blogging as much (and why I don’t write e-mail messages to my friends very often) — because it take so much time.  Not that I don’t have a lot of extra time, and not that you all are not worth my time, but it’s exhausting for me.  Most of it is brought on by myself; my fear of writing something I didn’t mean or of exposing any heretical beliefs causes me to check, and re-check and then doubt and then check again.  The doubt that I have any idea about what I’m talking about continues until you reply to my e-mail or leave a comment.  You can only imagine the fear that runs through my mind when nobody comments or when an e-mail is not replied to.  Because of all that fear, I spend over an hour writing a blog post and some e-mail messages — especially if I’m talking about spiritual things.  I even have my computer read my post or e-mail out loud to me before I publish or send it, just to be sure it’s right.  Some of that fear is healthy I guess (helps reduce typos) but a lot of it probably isn’t (it’s called “fear of man” — fearing what others think to an extent that alters motives and actions.  The opposite of this is the “fear of God”, fyi).  Anyway, just thought I’d share where I’m coming from.  This post took me 30 minutes to write…  if you don’t comment, I’ll go a little crazy, but I’ll just assume you are trying to help me work through my fears