I have trust issues with God.  He knows it too.  Apparently the only thing that gets me to trust Him is the “what do I do NOW?” moments which are in no short supply these days.  It’s one thing to live paycheck to paycheck when you KNOW there will BE a paycheck; This, freelancing, is exciting to say the least.

And yet, somehow, I’m okay with it.

Somehow?  That would be the “the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding”.  It doesn’t make any sense.  I had a job that was beyond secure, and I give it up, turn down another job AND cancel a job interview, and there is peace?  Not just peace, but joy?  There is security in my insecurity?  Yes.

And now, seemingly out of nowhere, I have an opportunity to be involved in ministry, but in a capacity that I feel the LEAST qualified for.  Not just an opportunity to be involved, but to be influential in its development — me?  I think I know how Moses felt.  You want me to do what?

By now I should see the theme God has sewn in my life.  No, I am not capable, and that is why He chose me.